June 6, 2002
v Surrender is of the being,
consciousness, power and delight.
v Our prayer for a particular
result is NOT surrender that gives, but a
desire that asks for something. When it is granted, we falsely flatter
ourselves that it is because of our surrender. It is not true.
v A time comes when the issues
grow in size or weight and, the prayed for result does not issue. Then we think
of surrender and find it is not there. In truth, surrender has never been
there. Now that our usual prayer does not have its usual positive result,
and resort to surrender is ineffective, we understand it is a situation that
defies surrender.
v In such situations, we find
our mind insisting on its own ideas instead of endorsing the effect of surrender.
v There is a promotion due. We
see intrigues in the office to award it to a junior. Our prayer is ineffective.
Insistent thoughts defy attempts at surrender is a typical situation. One is
helpless against ideas that insist on outer initiative – to aggressively claim one’s
due.
v To assert one’s claim is an
initiate, an outer method of the mind.
v It happens when our own
personality, the person we are, our mentality – WE – have no faith or no
sufficient faith in surrender.
v The question is how to
surrender overcoming the initiative of mind.
v Any method of mind, we know,
has two sides of success or failure, however righteous or strong our cause is,
as there are a hundred other forces at work, while an act once surrendered
has only one outcome, success for The Mother. This is a knowledge of the
soul.
v One may forget to surrender
which is unconsciousness.
v Another may act according to
his initiative and after fully expressing the initiative may think of surrender
feebly, which is weak consciousness against strong ego. Another may think of surrender
only when the work fails.
v The point at which surrender
comes to the mind shows the measure of his consciousness. Any beginning can
be made only there.
v It starts as a remembrance,
an opinion, a belief, a conviction, a mental faith and grows in strength in the
measure one shifts to surrender.
v Such a shift announces
itself as a growing calm that is ineffective to solve the problem but effective
to banish tension.
v How quickly one can move
from an initial calm to final solution is determined by the human choice one
exercises along the way.
v It is a well known
phenomenon that each little gain of CALM or STRENGTH is fully used by the ego to push ahead the
initiative of mind.
v It is equally a well
observed phenomenon that while the ego is active, an indifference or
forgetfulness overtakes one, both of which are expressions of unconsciousness.
v Mechanical repetition of “I
surrender myself” works at the physical level for those who are centred there.
v Calling Mother into oneself
works for vital personalities.
v A clearer understanding or a
change of mind with respect to surrender works for mental people.
v Methods depend upon the type
of personality.
v A spiritual person IS silent in the face of odds.
v One can be aware, at this
stage, of one’s eagerness to use the calm that develops to assert. To see
that move and withdraw one’s energy from there is a help. Energy thus saved
goes to strengthen the faith.
v Mental ideas arise as alternatives
of success or failure, the measure of each varying.
v Faith in surrender is always
success to Mother. That knowledge is reassuring and with reassurance grows
faith.
v With growing faith, calm establishes
itself and enables faith to produce results.
v What matters is awareness,
consciousness, remembrance of Mother, and surrender.
v When it is not there, create
it. When it is there, concentrate on it.
v Conscious awareness excludes
problems.
v Surrender defied is ego
asserted.
v When such calm develops for
a while, the feeling that the thought may at last be surrendered rises a
little.
v When the most important work
relents a little, it is the best time to attempt surrendering work of NO significance, such as
turning a page or sitting down in a chair. It is an occasion for one to experience that
for surrender no work is great or small.
v Turning a page admits of the
movement of surrender only as much as the thought of promotion.
v As a corollary, we now see
the complete surrender can be attempted at any point of life, regardless of its
depth, intensity or significance.
v Each man enjoys a certain
degree of social respectability at all points of his social intercourse. Points
of contact may vary, but the treatment he receives is unvarying. So too is the
success of consecration.
v It is not as if he meets
from outside the SAME
treatment. It is his own swabhava, nature that evokes the response at each
point of social contact.
v The root of ego is in the thinking
mind and its knot in the subtle heart.
v People given to thinking
will find the resistance greatest in the head which those who feel see in the
heart, but everyone has to meet the ego at both centres.
v There are moments when the
head gives way and the heart is there prominently and at those moments one
feels he is meeting his entire being at the heart.
v When the idea that surrender
is unfailing grows on one, it is better he makes his effort at surrender more
and more precisely.
by withdrawing his reliance
on his claim,
on the method of claiming,
on the method as such,
on the externalities as a
whole,
on the emotion of relying on
the claim,
on the very habit of it,
on the physical sensation of
the claim.